Reserved Excitement

I'm so incredibly excited about moving into our new condo. But at the same time, I am not allowing myself to be too excited. This is not really a conscious suppression of excitement, but something that seems to come naturally. Where does this come from?

I'm about to get all psychological right now. Ready? Go!
I think the pain of disappointment creates a fear of experiencing that same pain again. As some sort of defense mechanism, we try not to set our expectations too high so that we won't be disappointed when things don't go our way. I suppose people do the same thing with friendships and relationships (they've been hurt by people close to them so they don't want to be close to anyone anymore out of a fear of being rejected, etc). I've never taken a psychology course. That's painfully obvious isn't it?

And so, I've said to myself "I won't allow myself to be completely excited until I have the keys." I'm not sure if this is really the right way to think about things. After all, my Father takes care of the lilies of the field. How much more will he take care of his children?

Today I'm reminding myself of the Father's care for us by reading Matthew 6:25-34:

“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

I want to direct all my expectations towards him and the place that he is preparing for his people. Even if there are disappointments here, God will use them to make us more like Christ. He is using those painful things to prepare us for the day when the words "disappointment" and "pain" will only be used when we talk about how thankful we are that we don't experience them anymore.